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Hey, I promised to write about a lot of things… Well, here I am.

Much has changed while nothing has changed recently. I do things as I did, only my approach on certain subject differs. It doesn’t matter, and also, it matters everything.

Less cryptic: despite what’s between Ida and me, my habits haven’t changed. I still tell bad jokes, I still listen to the same kind of songs (which is not saying much – my musical taste is not too excluding), I still play a lot of MMOs, I still visit friends. Well, the last one differs, but not because of her – it’s because moving back to Esztergom means most of my friends I visited is about 2-3 hours of travel away (and same amount back home); and considering I work from 8 to 16, that kinda excludes social intercourses with them.

But at the same time, everything has changed. For a first, I have a reason to wake up for in the morning. I have a reason to live for. Also, we had some precious time spent together, and noone can take that away from me. Even if I’m not with her all the time (far from that, actually), I still can feel that… I can’t describe. If the world would end in the morning, I’d still say it was worth it.

Some geekness… I finally realised Wordpress is not as strict as WordpressMU was, and I can easily add my radioblog player, so I did, have fun with it. I also tried to install some last.fm panels, but they were too wide, maybe I just create a separate page for them later.

…I continue later?

I’m a bit tipsy, thanks to the santa clause (I’ll talk about it later), and I can’t stop listening to Pink Martini’s “Let’s Never Stop Falling In Love”.

You can guess whom I’m thinking of.

“When you are near, everything’s clear,
Earth is a beautiful heaven.
Always I hope that we shine like the star
And be forever floating above

I know a falling star can’t fall forever
And let’s never stop falling in love
No, let’s never stop falling in love…”

Can’t decide whether I’ve met the worst cashier ever, or the best saleswoman on the Earth.

The woman before me in the que wanted to pay with food coupons, she had two blocks and a full basket. The cashier took the two blocks first, and started dragging the stuff in front of the barcode reader. The sum was 8876Ft. She added up one block, it was 5000Ft. In about a minute she entered it to the cass, and then told to the woman she can’t give change from the tickets. The customer said okay, she’d buy one more thing, and ran away to bring it. The cashier started to sign the coupons in th eother block – starting with the 200Ft ones, toward the 1000Ft ones. Here comes the magic! She counted to 3.500, when the customer got back, and said “it’s 8500 now, but I can’t give change if you pay only with coupons”. She entered 3000Ft, and told the customer she needed to pay 867Ft. The customer paid, and then asked if the cashier added the stuff she just brought. The answer was a simple no, and then the cashier billed the new stuff. 715Ft. In the small coupon book there were only the 1000Ft coupons left. She said again, she can’t give change, the customer should buy things for 285Ft. The chosen item was a packet of cigarettes, now the sum was ~1200Ft. Here comes the magic again! She still emphasized she can’t give change, and asked if she should count another pack of cigarettes. That was still not enough, so she also suggested a packet of chewing gums. Now it was around 1900Ft, but she said she just won’t give change.

Well. The customer wanted to use some coupons to buy certain things. The cashier made her buying two packets of cigarettes and a pack of chewing gum, and to pay an extra 867Ft by cash.

I gave her the exact amount. I couldn’t dare her trying to make me buy some expensive stuff because she can’t add up 2 and 2.

Some could notice I usually post about bad things happening. It’s not because only bad things happen to me – I just tend to write the bad things out of me so they don’t bother me that much, so I can try to overcome them easier, letting the steam out a bit.

But many good and wonderful things happen to me as well. I tend not to talk about them, letting them flow in my mind, coloring my day. Well, recently something so wonderful happened to me, I can share, I’d like to share. Of course I won’t tell every small details, because I just can’t – there are many things I can’t form into words, I just feel them. I never was good with words anyways.

I met Ida.

I knew I’d like her from the very first moment, and I’m kinda good in knowing things like that. Of course I couldn’t know how things will go on, and I could never hope for what happened.

Slowly but inevitably I fell in love with her.

Yeah, the regular reader can see a pattern, but they are wrong. Compared to what I feel towards her… well, the other feelings were just crushes. Shame to admit, but that’s the truth. (Not including those I had a close relationship with…) And when I look into her eyes, I can see something beautiful. No, not myself (I’m not beautiful), I see love. Love, that glows in her, love she feels toward everything. I can see that the love she feels for me is just a fragment of what flows out of her, making everything and everyone feel lighter around her.

Words can’t describe how happy she makes me just since I know she’s there.

(P.S.: I know there’s only so much connection between this post and the title… it’s just often the word happiness pops this song title into my mind.)

I’m writing this post from linux. I mean, not from a webbrowser, but a small applet called gnome-blog…

Unfortunately, it has only basic functionality – no formatting, no categorizing, no nothing. Just type the text and press submit.

Still…